becoming panda

Don't know start from when,
my sleeping hour keep delaying,
at first is 2 something go to bed,
now is 3 something go to bed,
my panda eye already become darker and darker,
i need a pair of eye mask!!!
omg...
still thought today can sleep earlier,
just now rush the pesta malam kuih bulan's programme book until 3o'clock,
today still like usual,
only can go to bed at 3 something,
really feel like my sleeping hour already has changed to 3 something,
really feel impressed of myself,
before this,
3 something i already super blur,
now 3 something sometime i still feel energetic,
oh my....
i had just finished my mid term exam,
but i still having a busy life,
everyday full with activity,
the uni and my kolej de pesta tanglung already make me busy like hell,
luckily before this i already give up one activity,
if not,
i really don't know how to arrange my time...
i still need some more hours in a day..
not enough sleep...
almost want to become a panda bear liao...
haiz...

任性（个人创作，存属虚构）

从来不知道，
任性的下场会是这样。。
我承认，
我真的 很少任性了。。
想不到，
只想这么的任性一回，
就这么一次，
结局却发生这种事。。
如果那天，
我不馋嘴，
不要求你买糖果，
又或者，
我跟着你出去，
或许，
你就不会被那些匪徒盯上，
又或许，
今天的你，
还会笑着对我说出521。。
那天晚上的场景，
如今还历历在目，
你出门前留在我额头上的吻，
仿佛还残留着你的气息。。
那天，
和往常一样，
你出去练球，
而我却突然馋嘴，
要你买糖果给我。。
原本你不答应的，
说很麻烦，
但最后敌不过我再三的要求，
你还是点头了。。
你说你会早点回来，
要我先睡。。
但我还是想等你回家，
只是等到太累了，
还是敌不过周公的邀约。。。
临睡前，和往常一样，
习惯性的信息你，
告诉你我要睡了，
还不忘再加一句，
提醒你记得我的糖果，
过后就睡着了。。。
迷迷糊糊中，
看了你的回复，
你说你回着来了。。
看完你的回复，
又继续睡下去了。。
只是，
第二天醒来，
旁边依然是空荡荡的。。
我开始慌了。。。
突然手机响起，
以为会是你打来，
哪里知道电话那头传来的，
是一阵一阵的刺耳声，
是你妈。。
她一直哭喊着要我还她她的宝贝儿子，
我还不知所措的愣在那里，
直到你哥从你妈手中抢过电话，
告诉我你昨晚被人打枪了，
因为出手反驳，
被匪徒误伤要害，
而失血过多而走了。。
我又愣住了。。
我常常被你取笑我呆，
但在这种时候，
我真的不懂如何反应过来。。。
我感觉到我的心跳，
突然停止了跳动，
突然四周变得好安静，
静得让我听得见风吹过耳际的声音，
我冷静的，
去到了太平间。。
在那里，
我看到你就躺在那里，
平静得躺着，
似乎什么事都没发生过。。
你哥递给我 一盒都是血迹的糖果，
我最爱吃的牌子，
他说这是警方在你的尸体旁发现的，
接下那盒糖果，
眼泪终于决堤。。
你妈这时似乎也忍不住了，
哭着对我说，
如果不是因为要买糖果给我，
你不会这么夜还去便利商店，
如果不买糖果，
什么事情都不会发生。。
是啊。。
如果不买糖果，
什么事情都不会发生。。。
曾经地回忆，
不断在脑海里重播，
亲爱的，
我好冷。。。
不习惯，
我的左手旁边不再是你的右手，
不习惯，
少了你的拥抱入睡。。。
如果那天，
我不任性，
如果那天，
我不馋嘴，
或许，
今天的我，
还是幸福的。。。

如果不买糖果，
很多事情都不会发生。。。
如今，
我还是会很内疚，
对不起。。
害了你。。

almost being quarantine

sick again...
after coming here,
i can conclude that i sick monthly...
omg..
in this h1n1 season,
i still go to the clinic monthly..
but this time really quite serious,
who ask me to go see the doctor when i am in high fever,
at first,
when i reach the entrance,
when the nurse help me to measure my body temperature,
i only 37 Celsius,
i feel like something wrong,
i really can feel the heat inside my body,
and my body temperature is such a normal temperature...
but then,
after go inside the doctor's room,
he measure my body temperature again.,
38.8 Celsius,
omg,
why so big different??
and i really having high fever now..
after the doctor asking some normal questions,
he suddenly said that i think you need to be quarantine,
omg.. i don't want!
i still got a lot of things need to do..
maybe my face shows that i am really shock,
and i tell him Sunday i got test,
2 midterm test..
i cannot being put into quarantine now!
then he said if i add one more h1n1 symptom,
he will put me into quarantine...
( i promise you i will get well as soon as possible! i don't want being quarantine!)
he said i must take good rest,
now what i really need is more rest,
after that,
he open mc for 2 days for me...
actually tomorrow my co-curriculum has a very important meeting,
i really hope that i can go..
then he said some more,
now you really need to take more rest,
rest is very important for you..
he added that normally the doctor there wouldn't be so generous give you 2 days mc,
but because of the h1n1,
they did to do so..
i think he really scare that i am going to ignore the mc he gave to me,
and attend the activity that i need to attend,
he said if anything happen,
people will look for him...
(okay! okay~ i promise i will only attend the activity after i recover)
then he list down 6 medicine name!
i saw him write the thing on and on,
omg,
that's mean more and more medicine i need to take,
he gave me 6 kind of medicine to take back..
i know you want me to get well soon,
but 6 kind of medicine!
so many!
haiz...
why i sick on this day,
today my fm dj come to my university ei,
jason and zhuang jin yi,
and the my fm 特攻队also,
at first i plan to go de..
now everything need to cancel...
haiz...
why i am sick???

I HATE MEDICINE~